A romantic vision.

Can somebody imagine loving a imaginary person ? I did that for a long time. I love Lara Croft, and I am still loving her. Yes is a imaginary person, she don't exit but I love her. Not her image but the personality of her. If the imaginary and the real world collide for some strange reason ... and she will become a real person (just imagine that it was possible, never mind that is impossible, is just an example) and call me at 3 AM in the morning and ask me to help her:
- Hello I am Lara Croft. I know you love me, and I need your help. I need you to give your life for me. I know that is not fear but I need your help.
Believe me that I will do that without any hesitation. Yes, is crazy, I never meat hear, I never have the the occasion to that.
So that's what I think is the real love. An unconditional love, for witch you give your life without asking for anything else.
I don't think the thing with ... I love you because I had sex with you is a real love. Is a paid love with sex. Even the thing that you meat and speak with her the person it should be consider as payment. So real love it the love that you offer without asking for anything for your love, not for sex not for loving back.
But I am only a human and I am not able to offer true love, without asking for anything. And probably that's why I decided to offer my true love to a fictive girl. Because I know that she can't ask me for my life. But believe if the worlds collide I will do it, and I will be happy to do this.
I have tears in my eyes so I better stop here with my post. I wish that at least 10% of the people on this world to be able to give the life for the person it love( if the person loves back). I can't ask anybody to do it for free like my romantic vision of love is because I can't do it either.

Today: ansisocial day.

I am so tired, I can take it anymore. All I have ever wanted is a girl to love. Seems that this is not possible. I can't believe , and I am wondering if in other places is the same like here: All the girls I meat in the last year seems that they had sex with at leas half of town. I started wondering what I am doing wrong to deserve only bitches? I know a girl that had sex with all ( ALL) common friends we have (more then 20). (That make me so proud that I am unique, being the only one that I didn't). And another one that is 15 years old and .... let's better don't say anything about her, because it make my feel sad for her., but again ... make me proud that I am probably the only guy that she know that didn't fuck her.
So I just can't fucking believing. Am I the only nice guy in town, that first want to love a girl before getting in bad with her, the only one that want to care for a girl, and didn't make her suffering. Seems so, and probably that's why nobody likes me. Nobody can like I nice guy. Or maybe it wasn't meant for me to stay here and love somebody. Maybe their is a bigger plan for my.
For some time I was thinking that I am meant to take over the world. But seems that that's not it. But why ? What to do with this world ? To destroy it ? NO !. I have another plan, a bigger an more peaceful plan, that I will reveal in a few days.

Long time no see

I didn't post for long time on none of my blogs. And I have a lot of stories to tell. But not now. For now I am just want to announce you all that I am back. In the last time I had a lot of stupid problems in my head. Yes in my head. I really want to find a girlfriend and I tried almost evrything. I even tried mIRC ,and dating sites..... nothing was working, and I was so sad. But now I think I fine for a while so I promise that I will post more.
Maybe I will find a nice girl on blogger.