Friday, April 20, 2007

Today: ansisocial day.

I am so tired, I can take it anymore. All I have ever wanted is a girl to love. Seems that this is not possible. I can't believe , and I am wondering if in other places is the same like here: All the girls I meat in the last year seems that they had sex with at leas half of town. I started wondering what I am doing wrong to deserve only bitches? I know a girl that had sex with all ( ALL) common friends we have (more then 20). (That make me so proud that I am unique, being the only one that I didn't). And another one that is 15 years old and .... let's better don't say anything about her, because it make my feel sad for her., but again ... make me proud that I am probably the only guy that she know that didn't fuck her.
So I just can't fucking believing. Am I the only nice guy in town, that first want to love a girl before getting in bad with her, the only one that want to care for a girl, and didn't make her suffering. Seems so, and probably that's why nobody likes me. Nobody can like I nice guy. Or maybe it wasn't meant for me to stay here and love somebody. Maybe their is a bigger plan for my.
For some time I was thinking that I am meant to take over the world. But seems that that's not it. But why ? What to do with this world ? To destroy it ? NO !. I have another plan, a bigger an more peaceful plan, that I will reveal in a few days.