Showing posts with label Feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Feelings. Show all posts

Monday, May 14, 2007

What the fuck !!!!

I don't fucking understand. Theoretically there are a lot more girls then boys (twice as much) in this fucking city.So the logical think is that if a boy have only a girl. That means that half of the girls don't have a boyfriend. Then how the fucking hell is happening that I don't know any girl alone. Even more ... how the fucking there are so many girls I know that are dating multiple guys at the time. Mathematically is not fucking possible.
This is not only the first fucking abnormality ! There's a lot of VERY expensive cars around here ....
1 of 10 is more then 50.000 $. How the hell that's I don't know any guy that's owns one ?
I have started to believe that I am in some kind of box. And the walls have some picture of the "outside world" but there's no fucking outside world !!!!! We are trapped in this Matrix...everything that we don't interact with is a NPC (Non playing character) Is just there to make us fill that we are a lot more than we think. I am one of the few that exist in this world.... the rest are just NPC's. I am just playing with the fucking computer !!!!!

What the fucking fuck is fucking going on ?!?

Friday, April 20, 2007

Today: ansisocial day.

I am so tired, I can take it anymore. All I have ever wanted is a girl to love. Seems that this is not possible. I can't believe , and I am wondering if in other places is the same like here: All the girls I meat in the last year seems that they had sex with at leas half of town. I started wondering what I am doing wrong to deserve only bitches? I know a girl that had sex with all ( ALL) common friends we have (more then 20). (That make me so proud that I am unique, being the only one that I didn't). And another one that is 15 years old and .... let's better don't say anything about her, because it make my feel sad for her., but again ... make me proud that I am probably the only guy that she know that didn't fuck her.
So I just can't fucking believing. Am I the only nice guy in town, that first want to love a girl before getting in bad with her, the only one that want to care for a girl, and didn't make her suffering. Seems so, and probably that's why nobody likes me. Nobody can like I nice guy. Or maybe it wasn't meant for me to stay here and love somebody. Maybe their is a bigger plan for my.
For some time I was thinking that I am meant to take over the world. But seems that that's not it. But why ? What to do with this world ? To destroy it ? NO !. I have another plan, a bigger an more peaceful plan, that I will reveal in a few days.

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

Misconceptions.

Probably I didn’t mention until now that I am from Romania. (I mention in my other blog ,and I even mad some fun about it, but not in this one).

So here in Romania the largest ethnic minority is Hungarian people that make about 6.6% of the population. In the highest concentration are Harghita and Covasna districts. I was one of the extremists that hate Hungarian because of misconception that are very bad people. We had a lot of jokes about them and so on. Probably this has born in to my mind because of the new I heard that the Hungarian from the Harghita and Covasna district want independence. I was imagining that is outrageous, is right in the hart of Romania. How the hell they even can think about that?

So I was not very happy about the think that I have to go to Harghita for my vacation. When I had arrive there I see the name of the train station in both languages Hungarian and Romanian, and I was thinking: OK I am doomed. I had expected from one moment to another that a horde of angry Hungarians come to beet me up for all the jokes I had made in the past. (One of the jokes is: “If you see a back people and a white one drowning, who do you save? You save the back one because the white may be Hungarian.” So you see what my mentality was. ). I had arrived about ten a clock and it was already dark so I was kind of scarred. But nothing was happening, so I imagine that maybe are not so many of them there. I didn’t know where the hotel was so I had to ask. Weren’t too many people on the street so I didn’t have too much alternatives. I pick up some guy and ask him where the hotel was. He had answered me and offer to take me there. But it has a funny accent so I guess that is Hungarian. I answered that I will find my way and fallow his instruction even I didn’t really trust him. To my surprise the hotel was there. So he didn’t want to set me a trap. But there was nobody at the reception. (It was my fault because I arrived so late, in the hotel reservation was written than I had to arrive before 6 a clock.)

To wait until the next morning didn’t sound very appealing to me, I really wanted a room. So I look at the reservation and I find a phone number. I call the number and voice with Hungarian accent answer me. I explain the situation and she tell me to don’t worry it will com in a few minutes to bring me the key. In a few minutes a nice women show up and give me the key for the room and fill up the necessary papers. She didn’t seem to upset that she had to come from the home at 23 hundred hour for me.

Ok. What the hell is happening? Nobody is trying to kill me, even if they are Hungarian. Maybe they are not… they just have a funny accent.



I turn on the TV and notice that most of the channels are in Hungarian, and just a few are in Romanian. Discovery channel was doubled in Hungarian so the TV was no use to me. I prefer the English version. I really hate the thing with translating stuff. I had grown with Cartoon Network in English and I learn English from there. (That why I have Scooby-Doo accent) Now unfortunately is translated and I really hate it. You can’t imagine how terrifying sounds Scooby-Doo in Romanian. It really scares the children’s.)

Next day I realize that everybody around there is Hungarian except for the tourists. But it seems that my ideas were wrong all along. They are really nice people, and we should all get along. Also they explain me about the independence they ask for is not I was thought. What they want is that should be allowed to take care of the may from the taxes there and use it in the right way for the district. Right now the government decides what they should do with the money. And it seems that they make very wrong decisions. (Oh.. I already knew that the money is used in really stupid ways here in Romania like making a cheap highway, that is so bad that it must be repaired next year and, the year after that and so on, instead of making a expensive one that don’t need repairs every day).

So I finally realize that they are not so thick skins like I thought and there demands are extremely reasonable.

Do you remember the two girls I spoken about; there was tourist like but they ware much worse than any of the Hungarian I meat there. One of them was manager of a big textile company and extremely bumptious, like was the Queen of England. She even refuses to dance with me at the New Year Eve party. (Nobody invite her except me. For who the heel was she waiting for, Prince Charming?) And I was extremely upset and annoyed that a Romanian girl can do such of thing to me. (Even I know that I make at least 3 times more money that her just as a programmer). It was almost screw me vacation if it wasn’t for a Hungarian girl that notice that I am so upset and invite me to dance with her. So I have felt much better, and I have promise her that I will come back …. I think I am in love.

Also the waiters ware extremely nice compared with the ones from Bucharest.And they worked hard all night long.(picture of the waiters at the NYE party) So what can I say? I was wrong. I am really sorry! I had some misconceptions.

If somebody tells me last year that I will fall in love to a Hungarian girl probably die of laughs, and never believe that I can do such of thing. Now I am hoping to meet her again as soon as possible. Probably I will go back there on Saint Valentines to be with her.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

I can't take it anymore.




I intended to no longer post this year but I can't support. I have to post, it the blogger addiction. I started blogging to get rid of a old addiction and now I have a new one: posting on my blog. Even I know that nobody reads it I need to post. I have nightmares, if I don't post something before I go to sleep. I can't work if i don't post something when I wake up. I hate it, it shouldn't suppose to be so addictive.



I am relay wandering if should I sue Blogger because they give ma a new addiction ? I read the term of service and is no where mentioned the blogging create addiction. So I need a god lawyer for this.



Blogger take care !! I am going after you.



P.S: Sue Blogger for creating addictions is a patented idea so nobody is allowed to do that except me. Kid's don't do this at home.



Friday, December 22, 2006

Lazy

I am still to lazy to explain what happened. Maybe I will explain latter. Or maybe not. anyway is just before the Xmas and nobody is in the mood to work. I blogged all day long searching for something interesting.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

I am so tierd.

In the last few days I was feeling so tired. This is probably from the unhealthy diet, to much Coca-Cola and smoking. Anyway the idea is that I am filling horrible and I am not able to post more then a few lines per day. In the last time I didn't manage to do anything useful. Probably I have to take a break and rest.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

What a fine day for science

Today when i enter the office one college of mine told me "What a fine day for science", you know, the line from Dexter Laboratory cartoons. Is not relay a fine day for science for me. My car broke down. The belt between the engine and the water pump broke. Good that this was happened a few meters from the parking lot.
I had notice something wrong because the light the alternator turn on. But I was suspecting that maybe some wire burn out, or some other electrical problem. But when I was looking under the hood I had notice the belt thorn apart. I guess that I don't had to mention that the engine was hot and vapors come out of all the pipes. Doe's anyone know how to change a water pump belt ?

I will go to order a new belt a little latter and I will like to change it myself but unfortunately I cold outside and I also have to refill the cooling system. This require a ramp for allowing air bubbles to come out, so I can't do it in the parking lot. But it is a service near by. I hope is not to expensive. I really don't to spend money now.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Lazy


Today I was very lazy, I didn't do anything interesting.But now I started working. Maybe I will finish my program today. I am still searching for the love of my life.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Sad

I don't know but today I am very sad. I am still for a miracle to make me happy. But because I don't thing will gonna happen I am intending to find a way to buy an angel. Does anyone know an Angel store. Maybe I can order one online. If not I will find a way to make myself one.

What I want to say is that I relay wish to find a girl to to hug her. I relay want somebody to love. Is so funny i know at leas a a hundred girls. That are desperate trying to find a god guy to love them. Even better, they are asking me for my about jerk friend's. I asked myself way I don't scream at them "Hey stupid !!!! I am here, I am what are you looking for !!! I am the guy !!!" ? And the answer is that I can't love a girl that is not able to see something that is in front of her nose.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Augh! My head

My head is hearting like hell. Probably because I smoked half of pack of cigarettes in the last 4 hour. I was writing a program and usually when I working I can't stop smoking. Anyway I think I will make another blog about girls and another about programing and computer science. I am sure that I will have more success with that.

Girls

I don't understand why always god guys never have part of a nice girl. It is a misery for me. All the girls like bad guys. I sometime heard that girls flirt with the bad guy but is taking home the god guy. Is not true.